Blocked up

Sorry I've neglected the blog again for several reasons, circumstances, the fact I don't want to be on here moaning about the wet and mud when I know others have it much worse, plus the fact I've had writers block. It is quite unlike me not to be able to think of anything much to say, I haven't been feeling particularly funny either. Every day I've opened up the blog and just felt like no, I can't do it today. It's been very frustrating, especially as being quite shy I always find writing an easier method of communication with the world. So when I find myself sat here with nothing really I want to say, that's been quite hard for me. Creativity is like a muscle, it needs to be exercised and I really need to get firm with myself to keep going at times. When writing just flows out of you it's a wonderful experience, when it doesn't it's just awful. Normally I'm not one to lack inspiration and ideas but I have lately.

 However I think maybe I need to make the most of it as it could, just possibly, lead to a change for me, especially in art. I'm feeling the need to go in a different direction now, I just hope I don't have a confidence wibble about it. I've been looking at different stuff to inspire me; colours and moods, reading some fiction, which is something I haven't indulged myself with in a very long time, and enjoying the odd film too. I've kind of come to the conclusion I need to maybe start doing more stuff for me, without feeling selfish or guilty about it as I so often do. Patience, persistence and perseverance are what I keep telling myself!